=D



- i want a new set of fairing from thailand~~~~~ hehe..
- i want a sport rim... wohahaha..
- i wanna change the seat~!
*bling bling*
- i want the doraemon box.. ( any one know where to get? )
LOL.. -.-"

and lots more~!
any one wanna gift me? hahaha!

Somehow, i just simply don't understand why some people gotta be so damn irritating.

aniways, i find that i'm still lucky enough that my some people is only referring to 2 person.

three words...

ACTING IN ACTION... but lousy actor.

though i dun bother... but i just feel irritated... haha.. contradicting..

thanks to the 2 of who.. because.. u let me know that hows working life is about. wad is called talk but don't do. wad is the meaning of "pai ma pi".. talking craps all around. asking things which i just simply dun wanna answer. i answered still. but got sacarstics remarks. stupid. and dumb.

BUT.. PLEASE wake up from your stupid idea. cox the whole world knows abt it except for urself.. -.-"

and yes!!! so far.. i have been working at quite a few places... at different environment.. meeting different people.. but seriously.. the 2 of them are the most irritating person that i have ever seen..

but still... im grateful because i know my site got the least politics.. because there are still nice pple around.. =) because.. out of 5 pple.. only 2 ma.. cox i dun calculate the others who are not working at office. lol...

aniways... wad i have decided is decided.. appreciate those who really do care abt.. =)
can call me stubborn but.. i think i am la..

hehe... shall see! ciaoz.

有缘无份还是宁愿没遇见过来的幸福？
如果我有的选，我宁愿一辈子都没遇过。
因为没遇过，就不会觉得痛。

CNY coming!

ok.. enough of all this craps and lobsters....

aniways... 5th feb 2010!
went to Marina square to celebrate ZR belated birthday!!!
consiting of me, iris, joline, wendy, catherine and angeline!!
ok... i dunno why ZR simply loves suki-yaki.. and i simply hate it..
but still.. we are nice pple.. we still went there for dinner.. lol.

after that.. meet wh and his gf... drinks at brewerks! ... =)

... CNY coming in another 6 more days! and its like... no CNY mood still... haha...
Day 1 is a valentines day too.. and i think its gonna be so bored because no shops are opened! lol...
Day 2... wad i looking forward to! playin blackjack and mahjong??? hehe...

everyear.. after dinner we will go to chinatown... to walk around... to see fireworks there.. but.. this year he say we go bishan! -.-" oh well... shall see..

haven even get new clothes.. and i think im not gonna get any.. since im not going aniwhere.. =D

i wanna get many things!!
- iphone (4gs? when its launch? ) hehe
- mini lappie?
- should i change my spark to fino? er... hmm... mayb not lah huh..
- and.. i want an AMAZON~!~! oh damn...
- LASTLY!!! BKK TRIP!!!!

haix.. everything so costly... but its not nessacery.. haha...
its just a luxury... =(

hope that this coming TIGER year will be a better year~!~! haha... win more leh! (to myself onli)
bleh!

politics.. haha..

hmm...

somehow.. would you prefer people to speak to u directly or indirectly? prefering someone to talk one whole big round.. giving honey.. sugar... flowers.. bees.. blah blah blah and den tell u something which you dun wanna listen?

should u just thank that person that he had made an effort and time to think about the honey and sugar? or should u just find that there is no need a point for this...

so contradicting... thats human...

11 months.... not consider long... and not consider short though... time flies so fast...
i believe wad u have told me before or wad had happened u may had clean forgotten...

i hate people who talk to u nicely infront.. making it shows that u do care and concern... but behind... u know urself well wad u have said or wad u have done...
nobody else knows.. except for u urself.

i cannot blame u for anything..
because i know that u got no obligation.

I SIMPLY HATE IT.

I hate the way things happened.
I hate the reality in life.

If im able to sleep in my dreams some day..
I hope that i will never ever wake up again...

Simplicity. Sweet.

starting of year 2010...
times flies so fast.. its already 22 of january..
rewinding back.. i also dunno what i have done.. -.-"
working and working all day long... go here go there see house... hur hur..

aniways.. 15 january 10~
fishing at pprp..~!
first fish of the year..
i caught a MJ... followed by many promfet.. and 1 big ACK~ haha..
i'm so gonna stop fishing till CNY..

went daiso some day last week... after kite flying..
and...

i saw this!!!! (小熊饼干!!） --- but.. not nice de leh.. -.-"



im soooooo waiting for the damn bonus... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -.-" don't know when den take.. haix...

tired tired..

CNY is coming.. but... i dun have any feeling of CNY leh.. think this year is gonna be very quiet..
hmmmmx..

我还爱他

-loves-

泪水将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心早已掏空 真心话言不由衷
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

marking the end of 2009~!

well.. today marks the last day of year 2009~!

definately there are ups and downs for the whole of 2009.

coming back to think of it... many things had happened...

whatever past it past... there is nothing i can do to change what had happened...
hoping to bury it deep into my memories.. or i could forget what had happened will be even better...

hoping that whatever right or wrong is done will be remembered by you...

yesterday is a history.... tomorrow is a mystery.. and the present is what we called a gift..

aniways...

wish that things will be better in this coming 2010~!
=)

love.... gNisSiM....


LETS WELCOME 2010... ~!

Wishing everyone out there.. a Happy New Year... and be blessed with lots of love~!
may we not take things for granted.. learn to appreciate and to cherish what you have... people dont owe anything to you for any reasons.. lastly... love those who loves u too~!

the damn driver

yeS!!! finalli called up my IO...

and...

this damn honda city..
black colour..

plate number:


SGY3936R!!!!!!!

please open up ur damn eyes...

CHECK MIRROR
SIGNAL
CHECK BLIND SPOT
AND THAN!!!
WHEN CLEAR
DEN U TURN IN THE LANE SLOWLY
NOT SWERVE IN...

wonder how u get ur damn license...

DAMN DRIVER.

YES!! IM SO GONNA CURSE AND SWEAR THIS DAMN DRIVER...

WHO THOUGHT SIGNAL IS A BIG DEAL.

FK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&^%$#@!@#$%^&^%$#@!

IM SO GONNA HATE HIM..

AND YES..

DAMN YOU.

6 stiches on my chin... abrasions and blue black here and there...

i know u are so not gonna get down of ur damn honda civic when u see me skided.. but lucky theres an LTA officer there!.. ccb..
still dare to tell another uncle i did hit ur car on the back??
u fking wake up ur stupid idea that its ALL BECAUSE OF U that i fell...
BUTOH!!!!!!!
DAMN...

yes.. im so going to the IO to get ur vehicle number!!!!!! and POST IT BIG BIG HERE!!!!

!@#$%^#@!@#$%@@#$%!@#$%^&

My 21st Birthday~!

yeah...

celebrated my 21st bday on 21st november 2009~!











































chefs of the day.. LOL.




thanks everyone for attending my bday party~!~!
and. not forgetting those who wishes me too~!
love u all lots lots... =D

well.. some updates on my little babies~!





o.0


HELP~@!


he loves being cuddled.. hur hur..



my baby grey~!~!

work?

had been damn busy this few weeks... workin througout the day at bridge.. doing the adgs.. zzz... finalli today had some rest at office... but still.. job still not finish... and to be continued....

was especially tired over the weekend...

reason.. came back to work on sat till around 4+? and sunday till around 6pm.. dots.. -.-"

oh!!! i hate the auntie at Terminal One canteen leh.. fk..
me: auntie ar... i wanna order this crispy noodle packet.
auntie: ok. must wait...
me: how long?
auntie: around 10 min...
me: okay.. can..
auntie: eh.. u order other food la... this one veri long...

WTH! ok.. i walk off... and order from other stall.. kns...

next ... rush home after work... prepare...
went to aloha loyang with ling ling..
for..~~ IRIS BDAY~!

ok.. stayed there for awhile..

was so damn tired.. went off around 10+...

her present for the day was... a board with a pink trumph ahem.. hahahaha... (JOLINE IS THE MASTER MIND)
and a crumpler bag...

monday.. no monday blue for me this week... but i woke up late.. -.-" cox no feeling thats a monday.. since im workin over the weekends..

so as usual.. busy busy busy...

somehow.. got my appraisel for this year...

quota quota and quota to meet for the mangement. C+ and C-... wads the difference?? in the eye of them.. its still a C... and both + or - gets the same bonus, same increment.. wads more.. was told that getting this grade.. increment is less den GST... HA.. -.-"
yes... to say... he can onli give 1 A, 2B blah blah blah... and he alreadi max the quota by one B for another colleague... somehow, i know that im not as experience as them... i dun deserve getting a B..
another point... am i SAME as another one? he got the same ma..

aiya.. fk it.. i hate it...

yes.. DUN COMPARE GIRL..

i cant say anything.. if u think i deserve to be the same .. so be it...
yes.. u say its different different different.. + and - .. but still.. it isnt. its jus a console word to say...
cox... bonus grade= $$$$

mayb i feel that i do this much but actualli it isnt...

fk it...


like what some tells me..
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QUIT =)
since its not appreciated... dun bother...
~~
Life is unfair.. take it or leave it..

Ranting continued

dissapointed on what u have told me yesterday...

i find that im just trying to tell u what i feel and wad the society is about.
and not thinking about wad u think.

i hate it when u compare urself with others and tell me to go for another guy. wad does it mean and wad does it show? i will nv forget this thing that u told me.

fk it.

Ranting and Rantings

just had some squabbles over no big issue with him... as usual.. after the phone call, drop him some sms... and.. he jus apologise "im sorry".

somehow.. i find that things are not solve just by a "im sorry"

especially when i dun demand just a apology but hoping that u understand wad im trying to tell u.
but this type of issue after squabbles, and after his apology, it happened again and again from time to time.

im the person who is hearing the phone. u are the person who speaks. thus, who will be the one who determined have u shouted?
u will just get pissed off when i say u shouted.. den u shout even louder sayin that "i have not shout at all" gosh..

mayb u find u never.. but wad i hear is have ma... den whos correct?

u always insist that when we are talking about all this squabble.. is actually finding a quarrel. but it is? i find that its not true. when talking and we understand each other problems. is to understand each other more and to avoid it from happening in future...

3 years ago.. i've been saying the same thing.. and now.. im still repeating it..

i know u have change somehow.. that u are not as hot tempered as in before. but recently, i find that its getting wierd.. on top of this small squabble. u treat me nice..

i understand that people got his own good point and bad point..
but how much have u think of all this things? its not true if u are correct u can speak louder.

i do have my bad points at time. but i can tolerate ur bad points and why cant u tolerate my bad points and speak to me nicely?

or u dun even know wad u do to cause me angry.. when i know wad i do can cause u to be angry.

in a relationship.. it needs trust, love, giving and taking...

somehow.. i dun need a ambitous bf.. i just hope that u know wad u wan in ur future.. wad u want to be.. and go for it..

actions speaks louder den words.. no point saying and not showing any actions taken.

life for now is still okay.. workin and workin everyday... boring and sick of it..
awaiting for my lovely bonus to arrive.. hehe...
aniways.. now pending for approval from ceha to see if i need to take the examination or can be exempted from it... hopefulli its approved..

aniway... major event for last mth... other den fishing and fishing...

Cat bday celebration..

meet up at ION orchard.. had this jap tapanyaki there.. headed to starbucks for drinks.. and~! off we go to clarke quay~! for this bugee jump~! lol... ok.. its quite fun actualli... not as scary as i expected.. but.. the damn swing one is more scary when it go down.. ok.. the swing got some mechanical problem.. and we waited quite some time.. and thus.. we got a free vedio~!

next..

ZR favourite sukiyaki..
meet up with iris, jo and zR at MS.. for her loveli sukiyaki.. with onli mushrooms.. and i wun forget it.. lol~! after dinner.. jo went off.. and supposed we going to this iris pub.. but its full..headed back to MS.. and they go study and i waited for ling to fetch me..

update on my birdies~!

brought 2 adult loviee.. and hopefulli.. they can give my cluthes of baby loviee~! haha.. so cute...~~~
the 2 parrotlets are still ok... at home.. kpkpkp... dunno if i should put in a nest box for them cox they are copulating.. zzz.. but i scare the female will die of egg binding... hmmm...
my baby tiel is still doing fine... think starting to eat ler.. gonna get him a companion mayb this week? hehe..

should i get a CAG or a electus. hur hur.. =x

sonner or later.. his place will be a mini bird park.. lol..

whisky flew away

my baby whisky took off on saturday.. 3rd oct 09... afternoon.. around 1+..
he flew to the rooftop...
stayed there for quite long i guess..
when the town council came to open the access door..
cannot find ler!!!

damn sad lah.. haix.

wondering where he is... is he still surviving... or is he being adopted by someone..

when the night falls.. where he is sleeping.. what he eat...

and its raining this few days... sigh..

hope he is doing really fine outside... and will missed him to bits.

hopefulli he knows his way back when he wanna come back home..

his a 3 months old Cockatiel... Reverse pied.. pretty with its yellow and a little grey on his side on the wings...

no one reply to my thread yet~~~~

ciaoz.

recently many things had happened... ok.. im a lazy blogger.. lol..

aniways.. got my new phone already~! because... this choo ask me to call starhub to ask for voucher.. lol... as my contract already 1 year ler.. lol...
so...
wanna get a BBS but no Wifi.. wanna get LG joy but its the same windows at omnia leh.. difficult to use.. thus...

tada~! samsung jet!
but one thing.. i'm still unable to get the damn map..



next.. shall update a little on my babies~!



day 1 at home...


around 2 weeks later..



Current!~



aNotHer neW fren...
my lutino baby!



"shes sleepin..! shhhHh"


"both are tired" lol



ok..

went to interview last 2 weeks.

oh yes.. after the interview at Zr work place.. met up with her and walk around novena and tpy.. hurhur..

its still ok.. aniway one called and said i was shortlisted.. awaiting for HR manager approval..
around 1 week later.. my fren said they had hired another fresh grad alreadi.. zZz..
damn it..
its all of this damn 2 mths notice...

well.. so i went for the 2 interview is = nothing ler.. hur hur...

but have already told boss i will be reisigning... zzz..

i guess i need to wait till bonus den consider again.. haix...

aniway.. guess i will need to resign before i go and find a job? it maybe better..
but its already september end.... hai.. might as well wait for another few more mths... which is around 5 - 6 more mths? hurhur..

its like.. say long not long.. say short also not short.. sigh....

suddenli.. got no motivation at all.... maybe its jus a wrong step that i have chosen....

wanna get a job at TPY area......... or east area..... sigh...


on MC this 2 days... was actualli sick previous day ler.. den now getting more combo..
oh.. the doctor medicine even more power.. damn.. its super combo medicine.. which make me slept the whole day... wah lau.. dun dare to take this med alreadi.. -.-"
unless i wanna slp.. and wake up a few days later? lol..


also... went a few times fishing at PRPP and farmway... meet joline choo at PRPP one of the night.. and serangoon the next morning... and lucki she nv buy the baby birdy.. =x
so shes still good la.. will consider abt the bird life.. hahahhaahaha..


ok.. shall stop here first... to be continued~!

my grandpa....

hmmm...

wanted to visit my grandpa on 8th august... but... i failed to go...
he was hospitalised on that day.. and still not yet been warded.. thus, i did not go also.
planned to bring grandma there on the monday which is a public holiday.
but planned was not supposed to be as it is.

he left us at afternoon 12+ at the hospital ward. on national day... 9th august...
i remember i was at serangoon... after having my lunch and viewing the parrots...
on the way back to my bike going back... at 2+ pm ..
my mum called me...
rushed down to tpy...
initialli no one dare to tell my grandma..
so they ask my bishan auntie to tell her.

i think my grandma was surprised why everyone went down even my mum.

initialli she does not understand. cox my auntie told her "guan yin has bring my grandpa away"
As this national day was the day of the guan yin birthday also.

i was walking around at home. till suddenli.. i see her breaking down.

it hurts. everyone.

well...

went to block 78A.. everything was set up.
waiting for my grandpa to arrive.
it lasted for 5 days.

my grandma went down everyday...

stayed there everynight...

including some mahjong sessions with my cousins... to stay for the night....

ok.. i lost every night.

ling accompany me for the days...

thanks iris, catherine, hsing chieh, joline, zhen ru, hui xian, roy, alfredo, and my boss louis who came down... including darlin dad and mum..

the last day was the most heart wrenching. seeing him pushed into the cremenation at guang ming shan.

currently, his tablet was place there.

heard that my mum wanna make a trip to china.. "hai nan dao".. where my grandpa ancester is.. to place together with them also.. no more stories from him... wonder is "li bai" the poet his ancester.. cox he told me long long ago... and the stories from world war 1 and 2... how his brother was killed by the japs... etc etc...

thinking back... without him and grandma.. i would not be standing here..

since my kindergarden time..
to my primary school time..
they are bringing me through and fro from sch...
taking care of me.. every day...
giving me money when i already have.. or when i dun have...

when hes 70++ he still go china alone.. bringing back so many stuff for us...
taking train to bugis everyday... for mahjong session... hur hur.. i went once with him...

till his old... he still wanna went down by himself..

my uncle they send him to nightingle home... cox he finds that my grandpa needs nurse to be there. in case he fell down again at home and only my grandma is around.

hes not at home for nearly a year...

the last visit to him was one week ago.. with my 3rd aunt and grandma...
my grandpa suddenli ask for "roast pork".. but we nv thought of buying as he could not consume any food for the past months...

really hope that he will be happy and will be peaceful in heaven...
better than suffering in this world.

hope everything is fine for him.

he will be badly missed...

thus.. do wad u wanna do before u regret that u cant do that much...

there is always a saying..

parent can feed many child..
but..
this many child cannot even feed their parents...

its so true..